Saturday - Exoday
Exoday always has such an impact on me, so many people living the same lifestyle - living to please God.
Growing up where you don't see that everyday, going to something like that always make me shiver, good shivers.
All the bands at the hardcore stage was amazing, seeing such passion burning in their heart, and expressing it in a way that involved all their passions.
I decided that was going to be me, i was going to stand up for my faith, admit it to world, yell it to the world, SCREAM it to the world,
my passion in life is photography - and that came from God.
The night service was even more moving - Reggie Dabs never fails to speak into the hearts of every person in the arena.
I knew that the central coast had a lot of christians, but not a packed train full. And a lot of people i never picked to be christians actually were, it was quite surreal, but so amazing.
Sunday - Wednesday
Exams and studying (lack there of),
it was really good to have some down time, time to reflect.
Thursday - WOW WOW WOW
After having such strong sermons through the past 2 months, and seeing as though i was posting photos of FOR TODAY, i thought i may as well add a cross to my logo - "I AM NOT ASHAMED!"; For Today.
i was reluctant to do this as many of the bands i photograph are not Christian based. I thought they might not like the symbolic reference of a cross on their images. I then came to the conclusion that if I'm photographing bands that aren't Christian, it shows I'm open to their beliefs - so why cant they be open to mine. If they cause a fuss over the logo - then i don't need their business.
Within 12hours of posting the photos - i had two opportunities for my photography open up.
i had been dreaming of achieving things like this, i never expected to actually achieve it.
because i took a step in faith - Jesus guided my step in life.
This would have been one of the best day of my life - not an exaggeration - apart from a stupid mistake - the devil trying to pull me away from my calling.
i now think back and wonder why i did it; i have no explanation - i guess you could call it my comfort, i hate the fact i call it that.
but friday - that all got turned around...
Friday - Youth
WOW! thats all i can really say.
Jesus moved in Hope Church last night.
I had been feeling like i wanted to get more involved in the church, become a youth leader, but i have the fear... i don't know what of.
Intensifire youth conference looks like it would be such an amazing experience, but everything i think about going i feel nervous, almost sick in the stomach.
but last night brought me into the realization that i am the one who has to make the effort, I'm the one who has to pursue it - God will support me.
Then the speaker brought up the issue i was fighting with thursday... my comfort in affection. I know im a flirty person, and i know i love affection, and i have always tried to control it, but i now realise i needed God to help me achieve this... This is where it gets... deep
During worship, after the extremely breaktaking sermon, i felt arm come around my stomach; the feeling it evoked was not like any human hug, i stood there, my waist feeling as it was on fire - but i didn't feel hot. I couldn't move, i just stood there, not singing or speaking, just enjoying the presence of God. As the feeling faded, i dropped to my knees - This was the most AMAZING feeling i had ever felt... I will never forget that night.
And now im left today to meditate on last night - it was so amazing i cant get my head around it - i dont think i ever will be able to - but having god come to me on such a personal level... all i can say is i pray that he reveals himself to you as he has to me...
GiseleGreta♥
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