Now Every Breath Of Life; Has Been Betrayed

this relationship that is meant to be everlasting seems to be diminishing,
the bond that we are meant to share seems to have been yelled and screamed away.

you no longer feel like my mother but like a room mate; a foster parent.
you have the motherly appearance, but there is no relationship beneath the surface,

our lifestyles don't belong, its causes this continuous empty feeling, which is beginning to remind me of home.
it seems like I'm the only one putting in the effort, and all i get in return is abuse,

I'm beginning to feel we have gone beyond repair, and all you will ever be is a battered attempt at a role model.

I find what resembles a father figure in my male friend; a protective, encouraging, nurturing male who i know cares about me,
i am now beginning to find friends who are now replacing you, but it doesn't feel right..

I'm beginning to move into independence, and its what I've longed for for so long,
but part of me is always worried about you, how your coping by your self,

but you put your self in this situation, through failed attempts to show love,
i cant be the only one putting in the effort, its to draining, emotionally and physically

i dont feel comfortable at home anymore, nothing feels like home to me,
i always find myself being pulled from my cheery facade, back to my empty reality, which is all i know now